10 mins

I am Waru. I am the abused.

Waru Reflections. DISCLAIMER: If you haven’t seen Waru then I suggest you don’t read any further, because this does contain spoilers! In part one, I am Mihi, I refer to myself as broken and fractured. This piece of writing is about how those fractures started and took root. I want to dedicate this to those ...

7 mins

self love and self forgiveness

For a long time I’ve hated myself. For as long as I can remember. I blamed myself for not being able to protect my siblings growing up. I blamed myself for the abuses they suffered. Not being able to stop the hidings, not protecting them at school from discriminatory teachers. I should have done more. ...

9 mins

Dear māmā

I talk a lot.  All the time.  I talk about what it was like growing up in a gang environment.  I talk about what being a dad is; about what being a solo dad is.  I talk about local government, board representation etc etc.  I often talk about leadership and what shaped me as a ...

My heart bleeds…

I’ve been wondering for the last hour or so if I should put this up and it maybe the fatigue making the decision for me, but here it goes. My first job in Social Work was working at the Activity Centre with the proverbial “at risk” rangatahi. A job that really shaped who I am ...

2 mins

Kōrero Tuku Iho – Our History

Imagine NZ was invaded tomorrow and all of a sudden our kids weren’t allowed to speak English or Māori in school, they were only allowed to speak Klingon. Furthermore our kids are beaten if they speak anything except Klingon. We can speak English and Māori at home but now the entire school system is based ...

Tread water

Depression is like trying to tread water in a vast open ocean in pitch black darkness. You don’t know which way you need to be treading water but you’re gonna try and tread it anyway. Initially, you’re energised and think you’ll get out of the water soon. You’ll find land. You tell yourself, if you ...

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